May 5, 2009

• personal update

  -  work is better than it was, which is to say that i don’t contemplate starting a full-on committed addiction to heroin every weekday morning.  my manager has thrown me some other work that doesn’t involve working with the aliens.  this is a relief for the following reasons: 

  1.  while the aliens are very nice people they are a nightmare to work with because their english is unmanageable.  relying on pure context and intuition to decipher wtf they are talking about might work in a social setting, but not in a work setting.  working on other shit means i don’t rely on them to complete anything.  yay! 
  2.  since i’m working on new projects, that means i am working with new customers.  therefore interaction with the manipulative, lazy, dishonest customer bitch is at a mimimum.  yay!
  3.  for some reason my manager loves me now.  i swear to God it’s like someone fed him happy cakes one morning and they permanently damaged his brain.  yay!

  but work is still pretty damn hateable for the following reasons:

  1.  the nature of the work itself is getting very boring.  or maybe it’s just this place?  i can’t tell.  SOMEthing about what i’ve been doing for the last 12 years is getting boring.  i need to figure out if i can really stomach doing this for another 12 years.  something tells me, no.  and if the answer is indeed no, then everyday here is a waste of time.
  2.  my company stock price was about $10 when i started.  it’s at about $1 now, which is a huge mark up from where it was about two months ago, which was about .30 cents, literally.  401K matching has been eliminated.  medical benefits have been costing more and more every year (the out-of-pocket cost doubled last year.  doubled!)
  3.  even though my immediate company has improved slightly, this place is still filled to the head with people i despise or am completely ambivalent about.
  4.  the bathroom.  good lord, man.  it’s a toxic wasteland health hazard in there.  everyday i literally see puddles of piss underneath the urinals and it fucking STINKS.  some filthy motherfucker is pissing directly onto the floor and i can almost tell it’s deliberate by the smooth edges of the puddle indicating that it wasn’t just a stray trickle here and there.  it’s like someone poured the piss onto the floor.  i actually think i might have caught the bastard doing it one day but i’m not 100% sure.  couple that with the hugely overweight (350-400 pounds?) daytime shitters that just make the place stink like rotting prunes.  i imagine it’s not that easy for them to clean their buttcracks since their asses are like four miles from the tips of their fingers and all so when they drop their pants….  HOOO-EEY!  *gag*
  5.  i might be rotated back onto the nightmare team with the aliens and the dishonest customer bitch, albeit this time with considerably more responsibility.  the thought of jumping back into that pool of shit makes me want to quit and fry french fries for the rest of my life. 
  6.  some general — but very real — instability specific to my work place that i can’t get into. 

  -  i am not dating and have not dated anyone in a long while.  not a single date.  not even a single “let’s have dinner (but it’s actually kind of a date)” date.  i think this well has run dry.  and quite frankly, i’m convinced that any date right now would result in disaster anyway, so maybe this is for the best.  i’m just a cantankerous bastard. 

  -  i’m working on a script!  a very short one, but a script nonetheless.  thinking about movies from this perspective is giving me new appreciation for what a big project filmmaking really is.  you’re literally creating something from nothing.  and it requires the full participation and coordination of an army of people.  if i ever get around to making my short, it will definitely be: 1. very personal and 2.  full of cursing and 3.  very boring.  hopefully my announcing it here quasi-publically will motivate me to actually see this through to the end. 

  -  i’ve been watching a shit ton of movies lately including a few korean ones worth nothing.  My Dear Enemy (Mutjin Haroo) and Going By The Book (BaReuGae SalJa).  both excellent. 

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